Sunday, May 24, 2015

White Flag: A Poem for My Children

There may come a moment in your lives
when you realize: most people love you
in proportion to how comfortable you
make them feel, which may or may not
be love at all. You may start to see that
it was never about you (the person at
the center of your center) but, instead,
about how obedient you were...or quiet
(shhh)...accommodating, pleasant, loyal.
In other words, it was always just about
your giving something, or everything, and
your not asking for too much, or anything,

            especially repentance.

You may wake up one morning and see:
the truest love you've ever experienced
is that which you disregarded or (worse)
destroyed. You may start to realize you
had it all backwards, and even as regret
and shame wash over, the world will say:
"You've always made your own decisions;
own them and the consequences, too!"
You may insist that all you knew is what
you knew, what they taught you, but the
world will just shrug and hope there's a
name for what's wrong with you, a way to

            explain it (you) all away.

I'd like to tell you how it will all turn out,
but I just woke up this morning and arrived.
I just. Woke up. If it ever happens to you (if
you can forgive me in that moment), find me.
Make a white flag of this page and remind me.
Make a white flag of this page. Remind me.

3 comments:

  1. Pretty profound! Absolutely beautiful, too!

    Peace <3
    Jay

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  2. Brandee,

    Wow...sensing a deep work in your heart as I read...((Hugs))

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  3. I love your poetry above all of your other writings, not to slight them (any of the others because it is ALL so very good) but your poetry ... wow
    I have won a few awards for poetry in college and a contest or two with some essays and shorts... so Its not like I have no experience to make a comment here ....(you just texted me as I write this).... but I want to say that your POETRY speaks so loudly while being so quiet.... <3 I love you , I love your heart , I love when you spill it.... in any fashion ... but you are so profound here as Jay M. commented .... and I am reminding you right here , right now ...that I want to find you again ...that cookie baking mamma , chief bottle washer and blanket friend that I once knew and loved ...so very much ...and still do

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